Big Changes With Small Steps

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I’m craving so much out of life.

This year has been incredible.

Let me describe all the wonderful things this year has brought and why I’m craving more.

Amanda and I moved into a bigger place. Now, it’s not perfect… I don’t like it personally for many reasons, but it is a place to live. The year before that we were living in a tiny studio apartment for all three of us. The year before that, we were living in a bedroom at my dad’s place.

This year I ditched the business name that I felt no longer represented me and changed it to just my name. I now feel like myself in my business. I also sacrificed my Spring and Summer in order to hire the artist I wanted to design my logo. It was a lot of money. Our Spring and Summer was rough money-wise, but not once did I regret hiring him. I’m grateful for Amanda understanding my reasons why and supporting me 100%. This year, I also completely made the switch from PC to Mac. I’ve been wanting to for years. I was able to get an iMac and a Macbook. Both decisions, I don’t regret. They’ve made my life much better and less stressful. I went in with a friend of mine and started renting a studio space. An actual studio space at an amazing warehouse that I envisioned I wanted to be in. I literally have a place to go work and it’s an amazing feeling. I’m so grateful for it. I also have been wanting to book a wedding up in the pacific northwest and I had my first couple a few month back book me for their wedding next year. Every couple that has been coming my way this year is nothing short of incredible. Seriously. Every single one of them. I used to dream about my dream clients… and now I have them!

Amanda has been killing it in school. I don’t know how the hell she does it, but she does it really fucking well. She’s currently at UTSA preparing herself for another few years ahead of her towards getting a PHD. That’s right… A P. H. Fucking D!!!! Before that, she was at SAC working towards finding what she wanted to do with her life. And back when I was jobless and starting my business and we were living with my dad… she had no clue with what she wanted to do with her life. Now she’s set on what she wants to do and is working towards a PHD. That, to me, is incredible. She also finally learned to drive and was able to purchase her very first car! That opened up so many possibilities for us both.

Yes… This year has had it’s ups and downs. It’s been hectic and stressful on many different levels. However, as a whole… 2015 has been an incredible year. One that I’m definitely grateful for.

And now… I’m wanting to take our lives further.

My goal one day is to make changes in the lives of others.

I want to show people that it’s okay to take risks to follow your dreams. I want people to live their lives to the fullest. I want them to know how great it feels to do what they love. I have many different roads and paths that I’m thinking of going for all that, but right now… my focus is on myself.

I want to better myself emotionally, mentally, and creatively.

I say this because I feel that I can’t expect to change the lives of others without first and foremost being the best version of myself.

Being fired from a job I hated and forcing myself to start the job of my dreams was the best thing to happen to me. I want others to follow their dreams as well. Things can be rough. They still are rough for me. But the hard times are still much more rewarding than some safe, high paying job that you hate going to every week. When I worked for the state, the weekend was what I lived for. Now, everyday is a weekend to me.

What I’m getting at, is that I’ve been slowly making changes to my life and myself. I want to form better habits for myself. However, I say slowly because I don’t want to take on a bunch of huge changes all at once. That’s just overwhelming. So, for the past few months, I’ve been doing little changes here and there. When one starts to set in, I start another.

One thing I’ve been really into lately is studying productivity. Most importantly, how entrepreneurs live. What they do. How they do things. Why they do things. I’m not obsessed with productivity because I want to do a lot of things everyday, but because I want to live life to the fullest everyday and change the lives of others. I won’t go much into my productivity side of myself lately, but I’ve been doing a lot. I’m learning, reading, and starting to connect with others who are doing the same. And as of late, I’ve become a tester for a productivity software coming out sometime next year.

I posted a picture of this book, “How To Be Interesting”, because I just read the entire book tonight while waiting for Ethan to fall asleep. I bought it months ago, but finally got around to it. I’ll admit, it’s not really a book, but merely drawings and little paragraphs here and there, but it’s still a great book. I’m trying to read more.

I’ve also been meditating when I can and that’s been life changing. I crave it now. I’ve gone from 5 minutes to 1o minutes to now 15 minutes minimum. I have a feeling I’ll be working my way up to 20 minutes a day very soon.

My latest crave has been green smoothies. I made my first one last Wednesday. Ever since then, I’ve made one every morning since. I crave them everyday now.

These are the many changes that I’ve been making in my own life lately. This year has been way too incredible not to invest in myself more. There’s more things I want to invest into myself soon, but only one habit at a time. The smoothies only took about a week. Now, comes the books. After that, I’ll implement exercising again.

I can’t wait to see where the years ahead take me, Amanda, and Ethan.

This is only the beginning.