What I’m Grateful For In 2018

6 years ago, I met my now wife. And little did I know that my life would change a lot and also for the better. I’ve never wanted kids of my own. That’s a whole other story. However, she did have a 1 year old and there I was stepping into becoming a stepdad and first time parent.

I was so scared. I was never good with kids. Part of the reason I never want/wanted kids of my own is/was because it’s a big responsibility. I’d never really been good at responsibility. I always tended to do what ever I wanted to do.

I was just coming off from being an emotional wreck. At that time, I had just gotten over depression about my purpose in life. I was frustrated with everything that was going on with me. I was tired of working a 9-5 job I hated. I was tired of the terrible relationships I was attracting in my life. One day on my lunch break, I sat in my car and wrote out all the qualities I want in someone I’d want in my life. The next day, I met Amanda. That was the first time I realized that whatever you focus on, you’ll attract.

Except, having a child wasn’t in my list. Haha. But you gotta trust what life throws at you sometimes.

Anyhow, this photo popped up in my memories on my Facebook and it brought back so many memories.

This was the very first Thanksgiving that I had shared with both Amanda and Ethan. I had only known Amanda and Ethan a few months.

Becoming a stepdad has pushed me to become a better person for myself, for Amanda, and for Ethan. I still don’t want a child of my own, but Ethan, he’s still my little dude and I care for him as if he were my own.

I guess the main thoughts that were going through my mind when I saw this picture was, “Damn Anthony, you’ve really grown up a lot since then.”

I’m grateful for a lot of things, but my family is one thing I’ll always be grateful for. I truly don’t know where I would be right now emotionally if it weren’t for them in my life.

My Crazy Travel Life

In the midst of non-stop work. I realized that I hadn’t shared a preview from Jess and Trent’s wedding a few weeks ago over on Instagram and Facebook. I’ve been focused on working on weddings in order to make sure I get everyone their photos as quickly as possible. Plus, with holidays coming up, I don’t want to fall behind.

It’s been full on madness like it always is this time of year. But in a good way. I fucking love what I do. It’s seriously a rush of energy. And compared to last year when I was adjusting to the driving back and forth throughout Texas, this year, I’ve got shit down. It’s normal life to me now.

Today though, my body is feeling it. I’m packing up my bags and gonna drive from San Antonio to Waco. Gonna check on the cat, maybe eat, and then make my way up to DFW this evening to pick up Amanda from the airport. She’s been in Atlanta for a conference. Then tonight, we head back to Waco. I mapped it out. I’ll be driving over 450 miles today.

Tomorrow, I’m making it a point to focus on myself. Gonna take it easy. Maybe take a bubble bath, exercise, meditate, and overall not work much other than emails and tiny admin stuff. The day after it starts back up with more editing, meetings, and prepping to drive to next week’s wedding in just a few days.

That’s really what I’m getting at with this. I love what I do. I work my ass off and pretty much don’t stop. But the key to maintaining this non-stop lifestyle is to take some time to stop and recover before burn out sets in. It’s important to me that I take care of my body. Otherwise, I can’t be at my full potential for my job, my clients, and my family.

For those of you who work for yourself, please make sure you take at least a day for yourself and your health. Never feel guilty for this. It helps you continue to do your best. And if you’re a wedding photographer like me, you can’t request a sick day off on a wedding day.

Deer Vibes Photos

This past weekend I finally got a chance to see Deer Vibes perform after not seeing them for about a year or so. That day, I had been assisting another photographer’s wedding. Luckily, it ended early. And since I didn’t have a camera bag or memory cards to worry about, I managed to make it just in time to see them. And like always, I snapped a few photos with my Fuji X-Pro 2.

Afterwards, I had a beer with everyone and even met someone who has been following me on Instagram. I handed her my camera and asked her to take a few photos of me. And I also handed it over to another friend of mine. I guess what I’m trying to say is that if I’m in the photo, I didn’t take it. Lol. I just wanted to share these memories from that night.

Creating Art For The Hell Of It

12-14 years ago, I used to be into design. I stopped after I got into photography. This year I’ve been re-visiting my design skills for the hell of it. I created this recently. I made it from a photo I just took on my iPhone. Creating is my escape.

The Oddest Thing I’ve Seen In A Thrift Store

Every now and then I’ll go with my wife to the thrift store. Most of the time I’m bored out of my mind, but sometimes you find some interesting things. Like this for instance. Lol.

Now that I’m making this website/blog my personal hub, I can totally see myself sharing more of this kinda stuff here. I feel like I had this really big a-ha moment cause for the past 6 months I’ve pretty much not been posting to my personal Facebook. It’s boring to me. But stuff like this what I would typically post. And now I have a home for these!

And cause I want my Instagram feed to be primarily portfolio worthy images, wedding or personal, I now have a hub for posting this weird photos or not so great photos. I’m so excited about this blog!

Bringing Back This Site

This site hasn’t ever really been a thing. I’ve own the domain name for as long as Anthony Gauna Photo, I think.

I never wanted it to be my main photography website cause I already have my other site as that. However, I’ve been realizing I need another place to post personal blog posts. I’ve been wanting a bit of separation between my wedding photography posts and other things.

And now that I kind of do quite a bit, I now feel that bringing this site to life finally will allow me to summarize who I am.

I want to personal photos here, share photography education article here, the podcast, lifestyle posts, and everything in between.

Because I would randomly use this website for well… random stuff in the past, there are a couple of old posts here. But from now on, if you want to keep up with anything related to me, you can do so here!

And if you want to keep up with my wedding photography work, you can do so at Anthony Gauna Photo.

Creating Art Heals Me

I can’t remember the last time I sat down and created art for the hell of it. I forgot how healing it is to just zone out from the world and everything going on.

I made this today using a photo of mine.

I got into photography because years ago I began taking photos to incorporate into designs. I eventually ditched design due to the amount of time involved.

I can get caught up in life and work so much that I forget (or am unable) to take time for myself. But today it felt great to revisit that feeling.

I Photographed My Own Wedding

Okay, let me come clean. I lied. Lol. This was click bait.

I didn’t photograph my own wedding, but I did have a camera on me during my ceremony and throughout my wedding day.

When I announced that I was getting married, people asked me if I was going to photograph my own wedding. I thought that was stupid. That would mean I would not be able to live in the moment at my own wedding. Or that other photographers aren’t great. We had an incredible photographer. By the way, check out our wedding photographer, Christian David Photo!

Photography is a huge part of my life. It’s what allowed me to meet Amanda in the first place 6 years ago. And where we got married was literally the place where I learned how to use a camera when I first started. Cameras are a big part of my life. Preserving moments that mean something is what I care about.

It was important that I take at least one photo during our ceremony and that I at least have my camera on me the whole day. However, I did not want be in charge of documenting the entire day.

Here’s a few personal photos that I took that day. None of these are from our photographer. And if I’m in a photo, it’s cause I sat my camera down somewhere and someone picked it up. Luckily, I always had my camera’s settings ready to go in every lighting situation. Lol.

It made me happy having these personal photos. And they take me back to feeling how I felt in that exact spot in that exact moment. However, if I was the only photographer… this is all I would’ve managed to have from my wedding day. And if I had focused more on the photos, I wouldn’t have been able to mingle with all my family and friends.

If you’re a photographer, find a photographer that you trust and appreciate their work. Don’t photograph your wedding day. If anything, do what I did and just snap a moment here and there. I was so pleased with our photographer. He did an incredible job and I’m glad we hired him.

If you’re engaged and have a friend or family member you’re inviting that’s a photographer, you should still find another photographer. Let them be a guest and enjoy their company. Don’t make them work.